When I was a new believer and follower of Christ everything about
Christianity sounded so great. I wanted to experience the love and acceptance preached
from the pulpit to drown the overwhelming feelings of pain and isolation. Unfortunately,
the burning desire was not sufficient because I did not know how to discern
what I read in the Bible and I surely did not know how to implement what I read.
Sermons were awesome and inspiring, but when I left the church walls, life
began to happen again and I floundered because I was looking for immediate
results. What I wanted was so foreign to the world I lived in and my new
desires created conflict.
I lacked the knowhow to put pieces together and was
misguided by not fully understanding scripture, allowing others to influence my
beliefs and intensify my fears. My newly found spirituality clashed with my
lifestyle, ways of thinking, habits, and even what other people were accustomed
to in my life. Experiencing this clash has not solely taken place at the beginning
of my walk with Christ. Time and again I have sensed a sort of kick back to
faith. Different situations have all pointed to the fact our human and sinful
nature get in the way to explain the conflict in our soul. God knows this
conflict we live with. He knows we need help; therefore, we have been gifted The
Bible along with tools and resources to aid in our understanding of this
precious gift to mend our soul.
Exodus 33 is a beautiful story illustrating a right
relationship between God and Moses. We can learn so much from this story to
help keep our eyes focused on God.
Moses was prepared and built up by God. He was intentional
and purposeful to have conversations with God. He knew prayer grew strength and
comfort to his faith. In verse 18 Moses courageously said to God, “Then show me
your glorious presence.” God’s response in verse 19 is, “I will make all my
goodness pass before you.” When I started learning about a relationship with
God, I originally thought all I had to do was ask. I later learned the full truth.
There is more to prayer than simply asking God for what we need. We have
to build a relationship with God to know His ways and desires. Our prayers
should line up with the things we need to be equipped and built on His solid
foundation. (1 John 5:14-15) Asking apart from the individual relationship can
isolate us to selfish thoughts driving us to miss the opportunity to fully experience
God as Moses did. We have to have our heart and mind open to see the goodness
God puts in our path. In the beginning of this story, Moses did not get the
response he was looking for from God. But he trusted God. His boldness and
honesty with God helped him to understand God’s intentions and accept the
reality of his situation.
I love the way this story describes the intimacy of prayer time. Verse 9 says, “As he went into the tent, the pillar of cloud would
come down and hover at its entrance while the Lord spoke with Moses.” The word
intimacy used to distract me when I heard it referred to as a kind of
relationship we can have with God. This verse helped me discern and relate to
the kind of intimacy valuable to our spiritual health. When we go to God with
the intent and focus to experience His presence, it matters to Him. It is
exclusive. Because he loves us, He meets with us with a closeness that
satisfies the soul. God intently unites with us because He desires us as much
as our heart demands Him.
I heard a speaker describe our walk with God differently than I heard before to make it stick in my mind. She said, “God holds our hand
just as a mom holds the hand of a baby learning to walk to prevent falls.” Not
only does He walk with us and hold our hand, He goes before us to make the
difficult paths possible. We can trust Him and know despite the heartache and
pain, He is there guiding us through it as headlights guide us down a dark
road. If we close our eyes, the headlights have no purpose and we are sure to
crash. We have to have our eyes fixated on Him with our heart and mind ready to
receive the goodness He will leave in our path. When we obsess on the pain or
situation dragging us down, we miss God. We miss what He is doing in our life
and may even become angry with Him.
1 I waited patiently
for the Lord to help me, and he turned to me and heard my cry. 2 He lifted me
out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and the mire. He set my feet on solid
ground and steadied me as I walked along. – Psalm 40:1-2 (NLT)
Lord, help us to feel your presence in the good and most
definitely in the bad. May our minds be focused on the things from above and
not the things on this earth. Amen. (Colossians 3:2)
1 Blessed is the one
who does not walk in step with the wicked or stand in the way that sinners take
or sit in the company of mockers, 2 but whose delight is in the law of the
Lord, and who meditates on his law day and night. 3 That person is like a tree
planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf
does not wither – whatever they do prospers. 4 Not so the wicked! They are like
chaff that the wind blows away. 5 Therefore the wicked will not stand in the
judgment nor sinners in the assembly of the righteous. 6 For the Lord watches
over the way of the righteous, but the way of the wicked leads to destruction.
–Psalm 1:1-6 (NIV)
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